Who I am

I am a twenty-something writer living in New York City and recovering from a 12-year battle with an eating disorder. In December 2013, I admitted myself to a treatment program and have been working toward recovery ever since. Now, in these later stages, I find myself standing in a sort of middle ground — en route to recovery, but still a ways from the finish line.

In the debate about whether one can ever fully recover, or whether one is fated to spend life in a chronic state of “recovering,” I am wholeheartedly on the side that full recovery is possible. Even I if I never make it there myself, and I were to grow old with my eating disorder still at my side, I will swear by the fact that recovery is, in fact, real.

The Middle Ground Blog

The middle ground is the rough terrain somewhere between “recovering” and “recovered.” This middle ground is paved with the hope that full recovery is possible; however, walking it still requires daily focus and commitment. Standing here, one is sharply aware of how grueling yet critical the fight is, because the pain caused by both the eating disorder and recovery itself is still raw.

While there are many bloggers on both sides of recovery — from the relapsed to the fully-recovered — I believe this midway perspective is much less represented in the eating disorder literature. But standing here on the brink of recovery, I find there is a lot to say.

Through this site, I am reclaiming the voice that anorexia took from me. By speaking out, I hope to stay on this side of recovery, and, just maybe, help others along the way.