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NEDAwareness Week 2016

Posted by on Feb 27, 2016 in EDs and the Media, NEDAwareness Week 2016 | 0 comments

NEDAwareness Week 2016

#NEDAwareness: National Eating Disorder Awareness Another NEDAwareness Week is drawing to a close. This year’s theme, “Three Minutes Can Save a Life: Get Screened, Get Help, Get Healthy,” focused on the importance of early detection and intervention. I can’t emphasize enough just how important it is to act as soon as possible if you suspect that you or others you love are struggling with eating-related issues. Catching an eating disorder or disordered eating in its earliest stages shortens the overall duration of the...

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Oral Roberts University Requires Fitbit for All Freshmen

Posted by on Feb 3, 2016 in EDs and the Media | 0 comments

Oral Roberts University Requires Fitbit for All Freshmen

Oral Roberts U requires students to track activity for a grade Oral Roberts University, a Christian college in Tulsa, Oklahoma, recently announced that it is requiring all freshmen to wear the popular fitness and activity tracker, Fitbit. The school will track each student’s activity level (and other health data) as part of a first-year course known as Health Fitness I. The Fitbit data will account for 20% of students’ grade. The move is a modern upgrade for a long-established fitness curriculum at Oral Roberts, which previously required...

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More Than Weight Has Been Gained

Posted by on Jan 28, 2016 in My Story | 0 comments

More Than Weight Has Been Gained

The Road to Residential Two years ago today, at 5 a.m. on a frozen Tuesday morning, my fiancé and I rented a car and drove 100 miles from New York City to Philadelphia, where I would be entering residential treatment for anorexia. I’d been in a day treatment program for a little more than seven weeks by that point, but it had become clear that I needed more help. My weight, already dangerously low, hadn’t budged, so my treatment team determined that my best chance at recovery would be in a 24/7 care facility. I had no idea how...

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Please Don’t Ask Me How Long This Will Take

Posted by on Jan 14, 2016 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, Therapeutic Letters | 2 comments

Please Don’t Ask Me How Long This Will Take

How long will recovery take? An open letter to our Supporters, We had the fight again — the one that happens when our heroic patience finally deflates, and our frustration comes hissing out until it permeates through the house. You want to know: How long is this going to take? How long are we going to suffer like this? You are tired. You are trying your hardest and we are draining our resources, but nothing seems to do the trick. You don’t know if there is ever a “right thing” to say. Most of the time, you feel like you’re walking on...

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Hope and Hopelessness in Early Recovery: A Look Back

Posted by on Jan 8, 2016 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, My Story | 0 comments

Hope and Hopelessness in Early Recovery: A Look Back

I should call the emergency line. I should email my therapist. I should tell [my fiancé]. I know exactly what I should do. I just don’t want to. I don’t want to be stopped. – Journal entry from Jan. 6, 2014 (full excerpt below) On Monday the temperature plummeted here in New York. The smell and feel of the cold air — which has been rare so far this winter — brought me back to January of 2014. It was one of the worst winters in recent years for the Northeast. It was also the winter I spent in residential treatment. It’s hard not to...

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Recovery Resolutions for 2016

Posted by on Dec 31, 2015 in My Story | 0 comments

Recovery Resolutions for 2016

Recovery Resolutions I get pretty sentimental around holidays. And since there’s not much else that says “New Year’s Eve” like resolutions and reminiscing on the past year, that’s what this post is about! The year 2015 has been difficult, but in very different ways than 2014 was. In 2014, everything was new to me — health was new, weight restoration was new, honoring my thoughts and feelings was new, relationships were new, even my voice was new (or, perhaps, renewed). The highs were high and the lows were low, but there was...

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Is Residential Treatment Worth It?

Posted by on Dec 16, 2015 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, My Story | 0 comments

Is Residential Treatment Worth It?

I recently exchanged emails with a young woman who is entering eating disorder treatment for the first time. She’s working with her treatment team to decide which level of care she ought to start on: partial hospitalization (day treatment) or residential treatment. We’ve corresponded a number of times over the last few months, so she asked what I thought about the possibility of going to residential. She worries about being away from her family and about inevitably having to transition to lower levels of care with less...

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Two Years in Recovery

Posted by on Dec 11, 2015 in My Story | 0 comments

Two Years in Recovery

Two years ago today my entire life changed. I entered treatment at the Renfrew Center of NYC for the anorexia I’d had since I was 14, but for which I’d never been treated. At the time, I thought I would be in treatment for 4 to 6 weeks. It turned out to be 11 months — first a 6-month stint, then a 3-month, and most recently, a 2-month. I can’t say that the last two years have been “good.” By and large, they’ve been painful — at times excruciatingly so. But I also can’t say that I would change what...

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A Letter to “The View”: I Do Not Enjoy My Eating Disorder

Posted by on Nov 20, 2015 in EDs and the Media, Therapeutic Letters | 0 comments

A Letter to “The View”: I Do Not Enjoy My Eating Disorder

To the hosts of ABC’s The View, On the Nov. 19 episode of The View, while discussing Donald Trump’s alleged weight loss, Joy Behar remarked that while backstage the hosts had debated whether it’s better to become anorexic or bulimic. Co-host Michelle Collins asked the crowd, “What do you girls think?” before promptly answering, “Definitely bulimic. You get to enjoy the meal.” An apology of sorts followed, with Candace Cameron Bure reassuring viewers that the discussion was meant in jest, and that she, as a recovered bulimic, was empathetic....

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After Anorexia: The Point at Which I’ll Be Okay Again

Posted by on Nov 9, 2015 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, My Story | 2 comments

After Anorexia: The Point at Which I’ll Be Okay Again

  Just about two weeks ago I traveled to Washington, DC for the second annual March Against ED and my third EDC Lobby Day. (Photos to follow — stay tuned!!) There has been a lot to process from the two emotionally and physically draining — though rewarding — days I spent there. The March and Lobby Day are at once exhilarating and exhausting. The people you meet are unconditionally supportive, to say nothing of singularly empathetic. Being among this group is cathartic, but also at times trying. Two days of retelling our most difficult...

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