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Medication and Eating Disorders: An “Anti” View

Posted by on Jul 5, 2016 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, Insurance Issues, My Story, New Post | Comments Off on Medication and Eating Disorders: An “Anti” View

Medication and Eating Disorders: An “Anti” View

A diabetic isn’t considered weak for taking insulin. Why am I looked down on for taking medication to help my mind function? The right to take psychiatric medication — without having to justify it — ranks high on the anti-stigma agenda. There is a long way to go in achieving true mental health parity, but the frequency with which I see this particular plug leads me to believe that we’re making headway. So now I ask that same community of mental health advocates to expand your open-mindedness in yet another direction: my right NOT to take medication. Getting On the Medication I began...

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The Medication Game

Posted by on Jun 29, 2016 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, My Story | Comments Off on The Medication Game

The Medication Game

I have a longer piece in the works about my thoughts on psychiatric medication. The delay is due to the fact that I have a lot of thoughts on this topic, and I’m trying to pare them down from well over 2,000 words. While editing continues on that front, I thought I’d share a prologue of sorts. The following is a journal entry I’d written months ago and just recently stumbled upon again. I would say the timing is uncanny, given the other post I’m working on, but it’s not really a coincidence when the dice seems to be weighted on this genre of thoughts. The bias regarding medication here...

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Orlando: the Latest Gun Massacre

Posted by on Jun 14, 2016 in Poetry & Inspiration | Comments Off on Orlando: the Latest Gun Massacre

Orlando: the Latest Gun Massacre

 For Those Affected by the Orlando Tragedy The news coming out of Orlando this week is heartrending. I imagine I’m with many of you when I say that I feel profoundly sad, as well as fearful of and incensed by the repeated mass gun violence across the United States. I have wanted to post something in response, but I’m realizing I don’t have the psychic energy to do so. When this unfolded, I was in the midst of writing an emotionally heavy post about the Stanford rape survivor, so I have to admit, I’m burned out. I realized, though, that it’s okay to bracket off some of that...

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Yes, Recovery Really Does Get Better

Posted by on May 11, 2016 in Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders, My Story | 5 comments

Yes, Recovery Really Does Get Better

Pushing Through the Final Phases of Recovery I haven’t written in a while, you might have noticed. I relapsed, and I was too ashamed to admit it here. It was a quick, steep backslide, and the trigger was very specific: I weighed myself. I went home for Christmas and encountered a scale. I thought I could handle the number. I couldn’t. I freaked out. My nutritionist dissected my meal plan in order to show me I wasn’t eating excessive amounts. We discussed the natural fluctuation in weight that bodies undergo. We even discussed weight loss and how it’s not necessarily eating disordered for...

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This is Anorexia

Posted by on Mar 17, 2016 in EDs and the Media, Ins and Outs of Eating Disorders | 1 comment

This is Anorexia

Oh, celebrity anorexia rumors… they never stop. As I was researching the relationship between eating disorders and social media for a conference I’m presenting at in May, I stumbled upon a rather abhorrent story called “18 Anorexic THIN Celebrities That Need a Few Big Macs!” (For obvious reasons, I’m not linking to it. But the website is called Juicy Celeb, which pretty much tells you everything you need to know.) It’s so frighteningly off-base that it’s not worth the effort it would take to even begin correcting it. I only just had the energy to...

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